NICOLETTE TAY
14.12.91, SATURDAY BABY!
CHC , N284, Nursery Ministry
NYP; Multimedia and Infocomm Technology
in love with green and chip&dale! XD
nicolette_91@hotmail.com
tagboard .
desires.
*Camera!(T70-green)
*New Small Laptop(HP)
*Black Leather Jacket.
*Purple Cardigan @Dorothy.P
*Engrave name necklace(Bits&Pieces)
woke up, no moood at all. thanks to suckling pig who ruin my whole day. the first thought that came to my mind, before i read the msg was, why the hell you msg me for? after i read the message, what you trying to say? thinking twice about that thing? or? third, a thought that came to my mind was, oh yaa.. why didnt i thought of that as im going thru a process of getting you out of my life so that i wont dwell over it.
do you know, whatever you said today and that day is super contridicting. you go read the msg that you send me that day, you were blaming yourself throughout the whole msg. and today, you're blaming me for the cause of it? what did i do? seriously... i wna know... whatever you told me the other day on msn what you dont like, i changed. i give in to you. i didnt even say anything about you. this time, you didnt even tell me anything and you just say break. who am i to you?
seriously. all the promises you've made is just a fantasy heh? false promises heh? just to make me happy, make me feel so freaking dumb now. you made me so happy for awhile when i receive your msg. seriously. but as usual, me being dumb foolish, thinking you changed your mind. in the end, you stab me with the knife again. you know that its so difficult forgetting you. wherever i go, memories flood my mind. this week, i didnt even think of you at all until you msg mee. i was so tempted to reply saying, do i know you? sigh.
why do you have to do this to me? what did i do to you that you have to take a 'revenge' on me by making me suffer..... huh?!?! do you think its very fun? do you think that my heart is made of metal? do you think i've no feelings.... even a dog have feelings luh, FYI. can you please make up your mind. when you wna msg me then you msg... whenever you dont feel like then you didn msg me. when you wna break then break. im your what? dog? puppet? your play toy.
i remember every single promise you've made. a handful of them luh. you wna me say every single one of them to you?! you still can even say you dont wna lose me. still can even say, no matter how tough the journey is gna be, i got to follow you until we grow old. i feel so secure after you say those. i felt relieved. im soo happy, thinking that i've found the one. hah! how dumb can i be man. retarded me. ohh man. you just cut me off like nothing have happen before. -.- sigh.
i didnt even complain a single thing to you. i listen to whatever you say or tell me to do. i give everything in to you. i didnt even complain you not spending time with me alone, always spending time with your friends.. do you even realise that we never gone out alone before after we got together...!?!?! do you realise?! i didnt even say anything about it. my friends kept on asking me to ask you out, then we go out together, i say dont want. i wna let you go out with his friends. i didnt even force you to say that one day you have to go out with my friends. you're the one who apologise and say that next time you'll follow me out with my friends....
i freaking hell didnt even complain say you never go out with me, or whatsoever. i give in to you and this is how i get repay?! my friends told me that im super dumb silly. i love you so much but you treat me like your friends.. i really wonder how the hell did you come out with the reason/excuse saying that you dont have the time for me and you think its unfair to me. if you can even think of that, then why dont you make the time for me?! sighhh. at least one of three sundays go out with me? i dont ask much ya know. do you? -.- hmmph.
hah! so now you trying to say that the break up message that you send me was a total excuse heh?! as now you're like blaming me for the cause of the relationship....... seriously. whats going through your mind? whats the reason?! the truth! what did i do?! that make us end up like this. seriously. tell me!
the best, meet me! i think talking face to face is the best. no use msging. 'hiding'. im free on sat night and the whole of sunday. not like the last time, got to go home at a certain time. meet outside ken's house, outside my house.... anywhere will do. just one day. or maybe not even a day, a few hours. or maybe not even a few. one or two hours will do? just me and you as friends, going out like we use to, have lunch/dinner/supper. can we? hmmmm. i'll be waiting for your reply. and i'll definitely be looking forward to that day. msg me. sigh. XP will you even bother to?
